I. To be disowned

Content warning: I will be touching on sensitive topics that might precipitate strong reactions in you. Please take care of yourself if you choose to continue reading. I contemplated for a long time whether to open up about being sexually abused growing up. Men that were involved were much too closely related, stepdads, brothers, cousins,…

I took a break from my family IV

Half of my head managed to surface above the ocean of depression I was blanketed in for 3 weeks, I finally was able to process my thoughts and feelings. As much as I did not want to come out of my isolation, just as my siblings face came rushing forth during times I came close…

I took a break from family III

When I wrote to family I will be taking a break, a part of me was hoping they would respond with something like, even if I ended it with don’t respond, “What’s wrong?” “I am here to talk.” “Do not pressure yourself.” “Are you ok?” “Take care.” Not that I would have confided immediately, but…

I took a break from my family II

I am often schooled by family members to indeed forgive and forget. After all, am I not Christian? And I wish they would not. Because that is the last thing I want to hear from them. I want to hear, “I am sorry. Thank you. I appreciate you. I respect you. I love you. It…

I took a break from my family (I)

Two whole week. That was my plan. It ended up being three weeks. Couple months back I decided to disconnect from family for my mental health. It was one of the hardest thing to do and to get out of. I wrote to my family to not contact me in any way for two weeks….

Becoming familiar with my genitalia III

“At 21 I finally took ownership of my body, my sexuality, and its pleasures. At 22 I can finally say it was I who gave myself my first sexual pleasure.”

Becoming familiar with my genitalia II

Once I become enraptured with something, I am succumbed. Vagina and eventually sexuality, became a whole new world to discover and learn. This hearth that lays near but remains in many ways a mystery, I wanted to be more familiar with her, befriend her. Learn her quirks and preferences. There was also the ‘innocent girl’…

Becoming familiar with my genitalia I

I kept putting off writing this post because every time I came to it, I kept laughing and shrinking in embarrassment. It makes me want to go back to 18 year old Selina and pat her head or shake her. This story goes back to January 2016 during my Christmas break in Mayrhofen, a small…

Body, Remember when…

Write a Sweet Love Note to Your Body #bodylovechallenge Dear BODY, Remember you went on the JSA summer program at Princeton University? You came back home after a month and a friend told you, “How are you still so skinny? So many Marshallese go to the US and get fat.” You wondered how to respond…